Can’t have it all

(Photo credit: Styleite)
(Photo credit: Styleite)

It seems to be an unspoken rule that when a few areas of your life are going well, there are others which appear to be somewhat lacking. I have plenty of things to be thankful for such as Mr X, my job and my family but the one thing I am missing from my life these days are close, female friends.

Mr X is my best friend. Most people assume that just because you have a partner that they are your best friend but I never felt that way until Mr X came along. With him I share everything – well almost because you do need some mystery in the relationship – and I believe he does the same with me.

But as much as I enjoy Mr X’s companionship at the end of the day he is still a guy and like most heterosexual men he is not interested in doing things like clothes shopping, experimenting with makeup and talking about fashion – and thank heck too! I on the other hand am a female who has recently become interested in all of the above but due to the lack of suitable company – read having no female friends interested in fashion stuff either – I’m figuring it all out on my own.

What an odd predicament.

I actually never thought I’d be interested in this stuff myself. I’ve always been a tomboy, I probably always will be but I’m enjoying trying out different things and perhaps finding my sense of style. I don’t think I’ll ever be a real girlie girl with false nails and eyelashes and high heels because it’s just not practical for me to go to that much trouble in the kind of work that I do but I do want to pay more attention to how I present myself to the world.

Anyway it all comes back to the kind of stuff that you would normally do with your close female friends and since I have a lack of those right now it’s sometimes becomes hard to ignore the fact.

But as I said before I’m very thankful for what I do have, it’s more than most and probably less than some but I’m okay with that. I’ve never expected to have it all and I’ll manage just fine regardless.

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Slow and steady

I was thinking the other day how my degree is going to take at least another six years to complete and yeah, that kind of sucks. Six years is a long time to have your life tied up to a project – even if it is important and necessary one – so I have to keep reminding myself of the bigger picture and the reason I am doing this.

Employment.

I need to remain in a decently paid job until retirement.

So far my lighter course load has paid off because some of the theory I learnt in Engineering materials can also be found in the Energy & Electricity course, and if I hadn’t of really of tried to excel in that class – and spent twice as long as others in study – then I wouldn’t feel as confident about this next course.

There are other students completing the same degree who are doing the exact opposite to me however. These students are taking two or even three courses per term – whilst working full time – and rushing/scrapping through with a passing grade. I guess that is fine for them but what does get me is if they cannot successfully research their assignments to get a better grade then how will they be in the real world with real world problems before them? Will they decided to scrap through that as well?

I don’t know about those other people but for me I want to do well in my studies as well as my job. I find it difficult to not to do so. So yeah I may have the pace of a tortoise right now – to get my bearings – but I’m sure it will benefit me – and others – in the long.

Things iLoved about May

Jaguar Car
Jaguar Car

Sailing on a tall ship // and enjoying the time out on the ocean on a sun-filled day // and eating our lunch upon the deck // and can I just add that this red liquorice tastes the best when out on the water // Reading about vampire lore in this book that I found // whilst under a warm blanket // A hot milo in the morning before I head to work and one before I go to bed // Visiting a local festival which included fireworks by the water’s edge // and getting up early the following morning to take photographs at the local dam // Attending a car show and admiring other people’s obsessions // Paying off my car loan